Thankful for your Conditional Love. Ryleigh's First Thanksgiving
I have so many things to give thanks for this year, but there's one special blessing that stands out from the rest: my son. Here's what I want to say to the person I love most this Thanksgiving.
Dear Ryleigh,
Happy Thanksgiving, sweet boy! I can't believe how fast this year has past and we are now
celebrating your first Thanksgiving. You're such a big boy now--you can almost walk and you are
starting to say more and more words. You're such a bright, adventurous little guy. You are the greatest
blessing in my life, and I am so very thankful for you!
celebrating your first Thanksgiving. You're such a big boy now--you can almost walk and you are
starting to say more and more words. You're such a bright, adventurous little guy. You are the greatest
blessing in my life, and I am so very thankful for you!
Being your mommy makes me the happiest I have ever been. I feel a love I never thought possible.
Thanksgiving and Christmas used to be so hard for me. I'd see families together that weren’t mine,
and all the while my heart would ache. I managed to put on a happy face during the holidays, but
when the holiday festivities were over, I would break down. I remember crying hot tears of sadness
and jealousy. I wanted to be a family so bad. I couldn't understand why--and that lack of
understanding hurt terribly. Sure, I know I wish lucky to have the Paulsen’s let me stay with them,
but what I wanted was a family of my own. That wouldn’t stop caring about me so easily.
and all the while my heart would ache. I managed to put on a happy face during the holidays, but
when the holiday festivities were over, I would break down. I remember crying hot tears of sadness
and jealousy. I wanted to be a family so bad. I couldn't understand why--and that lack of
understanding hurt terribly. Sure, I know I wish lucky to have the Paulsen’s let me stay with them,
but what I wanted was a family of my own. That wouldn’t stop caring about me so easily.
In those times of sorrow, I thought my "something new" but could never see something clearly
without the fear of not being enough. I never dreamed that that "something new" would be you.
without the fear of not being enough. I never dreamed that that "something new" would be you.
When you were born on December 15, 2003, it was a love I have never felt and I knew you
would heal my broken heart. There you were, my miracle baby, in my arms at last.
All those years of pain and longing disappeared the moment I saw your beautiful face.
I was so overwhelmed with joy, and I have been each and every day I spend with you.
would heal my broken heart. There you were, my miracle baby, in my arms at last.
All those years of pain and longing disappeared the moment I saw your beautiful face.
I was so overwhelmed with joy, and I have been each and every day I spend with you.
I am so thankful for you, baby. I am so blessed to have you. Just last night I rocked you to
sleep, singing you Christmas carols for the first time. I tucked you in and dried my eyes;
I can't stop myself from crying tears of joy when I think of how profoundly thankful I am for
you and for our family.
sleep, singing you Christmas carols for the first time. I tucked you in and dried my eyes;
I can't stop myself from crying tears of joy when I think of how profoundly thankful I am for
you and for our family.
We have so much to be thankful for, little one. We have food to eat and warm beds to sleep
in every night. We have laughter and love and a life so full of blessings. Sure, Thanksgiving
is a wonderful time to count your blessings, but I want you to know this: I am thankful
conditional love we share.
in every night. We have laughter and love and a life so full of blessings. Sure, Thanksgiving
is a wonderful time to count your blessings, but I want you to know this: I am thankful
conditional love we share.
Let's make a promise that today, tomorrow, and every day, we will always love each other
deeply and conditionally. I will never abandon you.
deeply and conditionally. I will never abandon you.
I love you with all my heart and can't wait to live this life with you, Always,
Love,Mommy
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